Faith-Filled

helooo

2008-05-07T02:58:00.002+08:00

hello there! I have relocated to desperate-derrick.blogspot.com. Come take a look at the wonderful world of Derrick See!

im back!

2008-02-09T22:51:00.000+08:00

Yes thats right! Im back! I am so excited to start blogging again! And this time im going to focus more on issues. Issues which i believe are crucial to our society and should be looked into. Maybe i will blog a lil about my life. After all, it is full of drama n comedy and you people just love to get a scoop of other people's life so i shall not deprive you of that. But thats not the point. The point is to talk about these issues. And on my debut return post, i shall talk about this issue which i just cant believe is happening. The issue of the tissue paper booking system.

You know i heard about it from my sister and from Jason Hahn's books(read them! they are drop dead hilarious!) but i never really seen it in action so i thought maybe it doesnt happen often. But to my horror, on my first day of temp work at raffles place(yes.. i will talk about my exciting job some other time), when i went to amoy street hawker centre to eat, tissue paper packets were EVERYWHERE.

I don't mean on the floor. It was lying on all the chairs. I was absolutely shocked. Not so about how audacious and inconsider singaporeans are to use tissue paper packets to book their seats, but of how we singaporeans actually ACCEPT it and allow it to happen.

It's absolutely amazing. I know singaporeans are often inconsiderate and not very friendly people(land of 4 million smiles?! PUI). I have learnt to accept that. But the fact that singaporeans actually allow this booking system to be put in place either proves that my previous theory is wrong and that singaporeans are actually considerate and patient and understanding, or we are just plain stupid.

After much thinking, i just know the former is impossible. My 21 years here have shown me that. Just walk into any bus or train in the morning and say 'Good morning!' to any singaporean. You will then realise in the Singapore dictionary, there is no such thing as a good morning. You will only get a black face to 'brighten up' your day.

So it has to be the latter. Singaporeans are stupid. I hate to admit it, being a singaporean myself. But can there be another explanation to why we acknowledge such a stupid booking system?

The worst part of it all is that even though i think it's stupid, i comply to it as well, walking in circles around the hawker centre hoping to find an empty table when there are empty tables everywhere. Oh wait. They aren't empty. They are occupied. By Tissue Papers!

Revival

2006-11-19T18:52:00.000+08:00

Today i write this entry to revive not only my blog, but to revive my personal relationship with Jesus. Honestly speaking, i have been experience a form of spiritual dryness the past few months. During these few months, i heard almost nothing from God. This led to zero growth. However all this changed last night as i felt the infilling of the holy spirit flood my heart once again during prayer at the NS brothers' night.

Never have i heard the Holy Spirit speaking so loudly. Never have I felt the Holy Spirit tugging my heart so strongly. Never have i been filled with so much conviction, so much desperation, so much love. All i could do was declare the Word, break down in tears, and welcome the Holy Spirit back.

Think this is a taboo? Well it shouldn't be. Spiritual dryness is experienced by almost every christian, especially leaders of the flock. It is not surprising to hear pastors leaving ministry to take a sabbatical. So if you are experiencing some form of spiritual dryness, don't give up. Hold on to God's promises and he will lead you out of the desert. Be an overcomer, not a leaver.

Encounter

2006-06-10T17:04:00.000+08:00

I cant believe 4 days 3 nights passed so so fast... ARGH!!! I always wondered how are we suppose to worship for eternity... Now i know.. Bcos we were created to do that and it just comes so natural... Argh!!! Wish the camp was forever... hehe that will be when we reach the finish line!

I think this camp is very different from other camp. One thing is that i think it will change how our church functions in future, for the better of cos. For when we are spirit led, not only are we following God's plan, we will be empowered to do greater things than what the Acts churches did.

Another reason is that its a very self reflecting camp. As in through this camp, you will know how is your spiritual life. Bcos if you are not receiving any word from God, you are probably spiritually dry. The word can only come if your spiritual ears are open as they are not from the words of the speaker or the worship leader.

So many reflections... So many revelations... So many breakthroughs...

Fever

2006-04-02T18:00:00.000+08:00

Im currently on attend C which means i got a mc from friday to monday. Therefore my break this week is 4 days long! Sounds good right? Not really... The only reason why i got such a long break is because my fever was really really high since friday. Ever since i reach home on friday, my fever soared to 39.5. It stayed at that temperature though the night and through the entire saturday. I was so worried it was dengue i decided to go SGH A&E. Why? Bcos its the nearest government hospital to my house and its free(the only incentive you can get out of the saf so abuse it!)

So the doc said its not dengue bcos i didnt vomit and had no rash and joint pains. So he gave me more paracetemol(i have never eaten so much panadol in my life...) Went back home to my bed... have been lying there since friday bcos everytime i get up, everything starts to spin. Fell asleep while msging my guys on cg details... before i could msg the second person, i fell asleep... amazing right...

Woke up this morning. Fever subsided. Looked at handphone. Flooded with msges. Read them. Felt so loved! hehe thank you guz for caring so much. Want to thank everyone for their prayers, especially from my cg since i heard they all prayed for me together. Thanks guys!

block leave

2006-03-17T16:38:00.000+08:00

just got back from Hongkong. Great trip. Got time to chill out. Do some shopping. Talk to harry and my sister. It was just fun. Got to watch brokeback as well. Kinda sick and boring. Im so happy i managed to do so many things in this block leave. Btw i got posted to MILITARY POLICE. Ok duno whether im suppose to be happy :P I hope you guz like your posting!

the best thing in the world

2006-03-09T18:33:00.000+08:00

without doubt, one of the best feelings in the world is to sit down in front of your computer with absolutely nothing to do, watching time pass me by... seriously.. nothing beats it...

Anyway the askariff.blogspot.com is doing really well. Apparently it is spreading throughout bmtc school, thanks to my commanders. I believe it will be reaching the CO soon. hehe. Anyway it is looking great. People are going there to shout out their greetings to their friends which is great.

Whats even better is that i have not got a bad comment for it yet! In fact everyone loves it! Even civilians! Like my sister. She found it so good that she claim i should compile all my jokes into a book and send it to the publisher who published the singlish dictionary. She claims it will definitely sell in singapore and will make me some money in this 2 years of ns... talk about making the best out of this 2 years. Publishing a book under my name would definitely be a big thing! hehe. dreams... i will probably try to make it happen if i get a clerical job and have lots of time to compile these jokes. SO EXCITING! yes some of you are probably thinking im way too ambitious, either that or you will be like my friend kaimin who said "eww thats so commercialised!" i never knew he turned into a pheobe...

Enjoying my block leave. Hope you guys are too!

finally

2006-03-08T10:23:00.000+08:00

well 13 weeks have passed since my day of enlistment. It has been a challenging 13 weeks for me. I faced many difficulties. But from all these, i managed to learn more about myself and how much i need more of God in my life. Its amazing what you can find out about your own self when you are suffering in the jungle, away from civilization, with nothing to eat but yucky combat rations which i found out smells like cat food.

My 2 IC ask me whether i enjoyed my time in bmtc. Honestly, no... but looking back, it was a fun experience. The process was terrible, but at the end of it all, its the joy that we survived these terrible stuff that makes it all fun.

I just want to thank everyone who has been there for me in this past 13 weeks, especially daniel and jiehui for listening to my complains and often praying for me when i needed it. Also want to thank all my friends like qianjin, raphael, matthew, harry, adeline, clarence and many others for keeping me going. Of cos i want to thank Jesus for performing so many miracles in these 13 weeks and being with me all the time. Not forgetting my section mates who suffered with me. You guys are just the best section mates anyone can ever get. Thank you everyone...

m18

2006-02-25T23:15:00.000+08:00

I just found out shirley likes to blog hop around the central people so i better declare it now. the askariff.blogspot.com is M18! THOSE BELOW AGE 18 PLS DO NOT ENTER!!! Especially if you arent even serving NS bcos you prob wont understand unless you had or am serving. Anyway i want to affirm Shirley. There are people i admire in my life. Currently there are 3 people i admire alot in my life. After today, it is now 4. I have added Shirley to my list because never in my life have i seen someone so passionate for the Kingdom of God. Never in my life have i seen someone that truly wants to save souls and change lives, to the extent that everyone matters. Never in my life have i heard someone gave a more aspiring speech. Shirley, you may have lost 12 souls today, but i tell you something, you won all our hearts today. Hearts of the centralite leaders. Centralites that will give all their heart for your cause, to God's cause. I sense a revival in central. Thank you Shirls

2006-02-18T01:06:00.000+08:00

The beta phase is over. the blog is operational.
Check out askariff.blogspot.com.

Another reason

2006-02-01T12:38:00.000+08:00

I found another reason not to blog. Im starting a new blog which has to do with my life in NS. it will be out soon and it will be one hilarious blog. Thats bcos life in ns is a joke to me. A complete joke. Will post more information abt that website soon.

one month in mohawk

2006-01-08T18:38:00.000+08:00

wow has been a long time since i last blog. Reason: too lazy. have been using my book out time to the max.

well 4 weeks has passed. usually this is the part where people say 4 weeks has passed real fast. WRONG! its the longest 4 weeks of my life. another 9 more weeks in freaking mohawk. Thats like another 9 more weeks in the place that is below hell. (Accordin to my bunkmate, there is earth, hell and mohawk below hell) Not to mention that my field camp is coming up. The more i think about it, the more i get scared. i just know its going to be the worst experience of my life. Apparently there are no rules in field camp and seriously, rules are the only things that are keeping us ALIVE in mohawk... well i do hope more of you will drop me msges when you are free. i will love company in this terrible time of my life.

national service

2005-12-08T01:41:00.000+08:00

well peeps... i will be going to that island soon... a weight loss get away chalet. pls do drop me msges if you wish to talk to me. i might give you a call at night. had a great night at prom. what a great way to end off a 2 year chapter of my life.

another chapter is going to unfold again and i hope that this will be as enriching as my last 2 years in rjc. see you all during xmas! cant wait!

TV MARATHON!

2005-11-22T14:00:00.000+08:00

"I'm sure if there is something out there, looking down on us from somewhere else in the universe, they are wise enough to stay away from us."
-Gill Grissom (CSI)

WOOHOO most of my papers are over and i have been watching tv none stop... yes all my favourite shows back to back. From friends to grey anatomy, lost to CSI. Oh man so many things happened... so exciting...

I cant believe im gonna say this but after watching friends and seeing how chandler and monicca got together... it just makes me imagine how happy i will be on my engagement day(aka the day i propose to someone) :D the joys of life. The many moments God has planned for us.

end of week 1

2005-11-13T22:40:00.000+08:00

First wave of exams is over and the second one is about to start. Well it hasnt been that bad at all. Yes the papers have been hard but it has been doable so i really thank God for bringing me through.

Indeed the bio paper was weird. The chem paper was probably the hardest in the last 5 years. the math paper was no easier with lots of big questions. Lastly our GP which seem so easy at first when it isnt. Yup finally week one is over and i will look back always to this week and know how awesome is our God.

Week 2: Week of the sciences - Chemistry and Physics relay. Jesus continue to guide me through it for i know week 1 would have been hell without you. Oh wait its always hell without you...

everything would be alright

2005-11-09T01:00:00.000+08:00

its 1 am and i got an option topic to study for which is worth 20 marks in tmr morning paper or should i say this morning. Things dun look good. Im tired, i cant remember most of the things i have studied. This is what i mean by hopeless in self but full of confidence and faith in God. What would i do without you Jesus... *goes to sleep knowing everything would be alright*

First day of A levels

2005-11-08T17:56:00.000+08:00

well what a relief my bio paper 2 is over. i think God really brought me through it. Miraculously i found myself for the first time being able to answer the essay questions. I do think the paper was abit hard, but im quite sure i never did a bio paper with confidence before. As for math i got my usual 3d trigo question wrong. Besides that, i think i might get a careless mistake here and there but its alright. Im actually quite amaze that the standard of the paper is relatively high but oh well, good for us in raffles :P

OK off to study chem which i have a high probabilty of flunking since i havent practise for ages. bah...

brink

2005-11-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

I think i have never felt so helpless before. I know im not ready yet i do not have a choice. I want time to stop. Its the feeling that i know im not going to do well and i need to do well to achieve what i want for my future. It is like seeing the future that i hope to build crumble before my very eyes before it even started.

It is behind these ruins that i realise Jesus is there and was always there. I have let my wishes and dreams cover my sight of him. And now with nothing left, i see myself running towards my lord, my savior, my best friend. In my emptiness, i find comfort in his presense, in his embrace.

Let me stay in your embrace forever O Lord... where peace beyond the understanding of man can be found.

Take my hand and lead me towards your will that is according to your plan in my life, for i know that is all that matters in this world.

no time...

2005-11-02T14:13:00.000+08:00

izzit me or am i like a few days away from a levels... NO TIME LEFT!!!
omg omg omg omg omg....
NO TIME LEFT!
What am i doing here...
*runs back downstairs to study*

die..

2005-10-27T00:07:00.000+08:00

izzit me or is there like less than 2 weeks left to A levels and i dun feel at all prepared...
Its like i feel like i hardly covered anything... im just so screwed... i can sense my doom coming... ok its 12 midnight now. i shall do something to make up for my entire lost day today. I shall do math until im so sick of it and go to sleep. ok so this is the plan. tmr i have to somehow finish inorganic chem and organic chem. friday i have to speed thru physics. Saturday and sunday are totally devoted to bio revision. i have to start bio... my goodness... im running out of time...

and yet here i am slacking in front of my sis lap top...

what i have been up to

2005-10-23T16:56:00.000+08:00

as most of you know im in hongkong right now breathing in polluted air to increase my rate of development of cancer.

well at least im staying at a place where pollution is minimal. I get a great view of the sea. The weather is much better than singapore. I get to try new food and do shopping like once a week. It has been pretty much just study study study recently. Actually more like doing doing doingl. I have been doing alot of past year a level papers as well as other school math prelim paper. Havent really picked up my notes to go through it. think i should start like NOW.

hai A levels... people say it determines your future. whats new... they always say that abt any exam... then they say dun worry abt the future. just worry abt getting good grades for your As... how not to... so many things zooming my way... so many opportunities yet not daring to give it a chance...

What am i talking abt... think im too stress over doing too much work... ok anyway let me announce something. Its official. Derrick will be shaving his head before christmas!

Masquerade

2005-10-18T16:43:00.000+08:00

"All the world is a stage and all the men and women merely players" - Shakespeare

I cant agree more with this line. The world is really like a stage, and every day it is a masquerade. Everywhere i turn, i find myself surrounded by people wearing masks, never revealing their true identity to me. I am so confuse, for i do not know the people that i thought i knew. All this time i have been living in my own world, expecting the best from humanity. Little did i know reality was ready to give me a hard punch in my face.

Reality is something that unfolds as you get older. I realise that getting older doesnt come by age, but it comes from lessons of life that you learn on the way. Each lesson you learn makes you more mature, allowing you to turn the pages of your life's book, to enter the next anticipated chapter, before you hit the last page.

Ever since i left secondary school, i have been fired with so many lessons. My eyes have been opened. To my horror, the once perfect life i thought i once had came crashing when the truth was revealed. As i begin to see through the mask people wear, i realise something is blocking me. I feel like im starting to lose a part of myself and my vision is getting blur. It is when i look at my reflection then i realise that i too am wearing a mask.

I guess it's time I run far, far away

find comfort in pain,

All pleasure's the same

it just keeps me from trouble.

Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.

I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.

It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

A fast week

2005-10-07T22:23:00.000+08:00

All i can say about this week is that it went by real fast. What i did in this past week, i cannot remember... all i remember is that i did
1) the AJC math prelim paper which is MEGA HARD.
2) Wrote a peer review for a friend which made my friend look like a goddess
3) Read my peer review written by that same friend.
4) Wrote my own personal statement
5) Scouting around university sites although im not applying this year :P

This is like my transition week. The week of slow processing of brain. As most of you know, i will be heading to Hong Kong this monday to begin my 3 weeks of isolation. I will be undergoing 3 weeks of pure intensive studying. My goal during this trip

1) Finish my math chem and physics TYS
2) Read up all my notes
3) Maintain my weight by running in the gym :P

Anyway today i was at orchard popular buying step by step solutions for chem. When i was walking out, i bumped into Titus, Ian and Aziz. Man i was so happy to see them. A sense of comfort just flooded my heart. Familiarity. People i have known for ages. The funny part was that they were at popular shopping for TYS too! hehe the reality of A levels. So we did some catching up, updates, and went our separate ways AGAIN... hai... i sure hope to see them again soon...

Prelim results

2005-10-03T20:04:00.000+08:00

Finally got back all my grades for prelim and as predicted, its bad. Now i encourage people who have heart conditions or pregnant to move away from this site now before you see something that will shock you. That is my grades of cos. Overall i got a BDEE with a C5 for GP.

ARGH!!! I know... from a ABBB in the last common test to a BDEE. If the trend continue, i will probably flunk my A levels and spent the rest of life regretting. psh... So depressing... Even my teachers have comments.

Raufie(physics): Derrick, this isnt your usual grades. I expect better than this. What happened? Even on your off days, im sure you can do much better than this. If you need any help, please approach me.

thats after getting 45 on the dot for physics. Not to mention my paper 2 which is worth 90 marks had a higher score than my paper 3 which is worth 110.

The best stil goes to chemistry because my paper 3 did worse than my paper 2 in terms of raw score. Yup yup a paper worth 60 marks thrash a paper worth 100 marks. bah...

The best had to go to my gp teacher ms ho, who conveniently drop a very 'encouraging' note. Seriously someone should reward her most encouraging teacher of the year. When returning me my essay, she had to announce in front of the entire class to me "The marker was lenient. If it was me, you would have got lower than this." Now you would think i probably score like 28 maybe? Around the average mark? NOPE! I got 24!! Excuse me... thats a fail.. you want to fail me even more badly izzit... seriously that isnt what i want to hear 5 weeks before my actually a level paper. psh..

Fortunately, im not taking this prelim too serious because after all, i cant apply for my university til next year bcos of stupid ns. So dun worry. im not that depress... and im not going to break down.. Like i said to most, its not the end of the world and whats most important now is our A levels.

Bah something light hearted. I got back my math S result!!! Im so happy because i didnt get single digit!!! People i actually got 19/100, which puts me like not the last of the class. So im not like the history making lowest score in math S boy. Phew... So happy i got one question correct. But of cos some idiot had to spoil my happiness. The boy sitting like 2 seats in front of me got 55. And its not 55/100, its 55/60 for paper 2! Like thats a distinction already lah... and his total score was like 80 plus and that like thrash my normal math... how depressing... haha who cares! i got a 2 digit score!!! YAY! Man i love to do S paper.

Btw i watched corpse bride already. Bah not fantastic. Interesting story, but not fantastic. If you dont have the time, skipping it wont bring the end of the world. Anyway to Iris and Adeline and Geri, if you read this, dun worry so much about GP k? We got 5 more weeks to push our grades up. Im sure you guys can get at least a B3 when the time comes. Dun let this discourage you so much k?

Series of Unfortunate Events

2005-09-30T19:34:00.000+08:00

Today i went through a series of unfortunate events. But what interest me is that everytime i meet one, God was there to pull me out of it and give me hope.

So after school i made a call to my bb teacher to ask him whether i could go meet him so that he can sign my cca papers. He said yes. However i havent filled up the papers so i had to rush to the library and complete it. After finishing, i had to print it out but opps no paper... so i went to the comp lab and again no paper... and when i started to go crazy, i saw a girl with a stack of paper. It was that girl who aint exactly the prettiest girl. I was saying out so loudly in the lab that i needed paper and that girl didnt even respond though she had a huge stack of them. But luckily i saw and approached her for it. And man was she unfriendly. Seriously if she goes on like that, confirm left on shelf. So anyway she 'kindly' gave me the paper so i rushed to print it in the library. And bcos the printer was on the other side of the library, i looked like an idiot walking back and forth to make sure the print went right.

It was time to go to acsi at dover. Asked around for directions. Had 2. One was take some bus at the back gate then transfer. The other was to take the bus 165 or something outside the school and transfer to 74 at bukit timah. So i walked out of school in search of the bus stop. With adeline's amazing directions, and my lack of sense of direction in this foreign land called thomsom and bishan, i actually managed to find a bus stop. The thing was that THERE WAS NO 165! I started to panic and then it was going to pour somemore. At this moment, God showed me a sign. A bus 74 drove pass. And i was like OMG ISNT THAT MY BUS?! WHATS IT DOING HERE?! so i walked in the direction the bus came from hoping it wont rain til i saw another bus stop and this time it had 74!!! I amazingly got out of bishan!

Upon arrival, i was suppose to call my teacher to get him to pick me up at his condo so i picked up my phone, dialed the no. but no sound came out. I was puzzled. I looked at my phone. It was black. NO BATTERY!!! DIE! so i walked along his condo to find the damn entrance. and when i finally found it, thank God another person went in so i could follow along since i didnt have the card. Then after that i got lost inside. The damn place didnt have signs and i just couldnt find the stupid condo building. After walking in circles, i finally found it but guess what... i needed the card again!!! then i happen to realise there are 2 doors to the condo and the other door has more people so i went to the door and just when i reach the door, some construction guy came out so i quickly rushed inside. YAY!

Got to the lift and took out my phone to see what is the unit no. Oh i forgot my phone was dead. SHIT! So is it 06-08 or 08-06... I took my chance i tried 06-08. Thankfully it was right. Got it signed and left. Then i realised i forgot to ask to use the phone so my mum can come fetch me. So i started walking around the condo in search of a pay phone. Luckily there was one because i couldnt find the damn guard house. Called my mum to pick me up and then the worst thing happen, it started to pour... and bcos i had no idea where this condo was, i had to ask my mum to fetch me at the school.

Started to try to find my way out of the condo. Miraculously i found the guard house and the main entrance so i walked out. HOwever when i got out, everything looked odd. Where was i... So i turn to the left as i saw a mrt track. Walked in the rain til i was totally drenched. Came out and i found myself near dover mrt which i last remembered WAS FAR FROM ACSI! HOW THE HELL DID I GET HERE?! Then i went to the nearest bus stop praying that there will be a bus to acsi but no... dun have... luckily i used to try to take bus to school so i know that there are buses at dover mrt that go to acsi so i took a bus to dover mrt since all the bus at the stop i was goes to the dover mrt. Changed bus and found myself again at the same bus stop i dropped off from 74. Then i waited at the bus stop, with my book and my ipod. Finally a beep came and i was back home again to take a hot shower.

What an adventure.... Tell me im lucky..

Depressing

2005-09-28T23:16:00.000+08:00

6 days of vacation... all over... Ever since my prelims ended on thursday, i have been playing hard with the carefree i dont give a damn about anything mood. Man it felt so good.

Thursday: Lunch at NYDC. 2 Movies: The Longest Yard and Brothers Grimm.
Friday: Mahjong at qianjin place. Bible study at night.
Saturday: Lunch with CG. Service. Bumming with benwai and some ywam people after service
Sunday: Watch tv the whole afternoon. Went out to buy food and had steam boat with qj and ben for dinner. Played hotels. Watched Lord of the Ring:Extended Version which was like 4 hours long.
Monday: Played hotels while eating the new jap pizza. Think its oyishi pizza whatever it is. Split up after that. I went to my class bbq gathering at east coast which went really well beside the fact that i was slightly late but oh well it was drizzling.
Tuesday: Went to the skin doctor to check my achne. Left for orchard cine to watch cinderella man with daniel. Had dinner with dan and daniel.
Wednesday: As a finale to my slack vacation, i did absolutely nothing today. I just watched tv the entire day away. I watched season premier of desperate housewives, charmed and grey anatomy. 2 movies Red Eye and Sixth Sense. Lastly 4 episodes of grey's anatomy season 1. Thats not the end. Plus the 7 o clock dragon show and amazing race. What a way to spend the day. Slack it away.

hey! im not a sluggard! Its just that from tmr onwards, its study time again. I will have to buck up with my studies and polish up my content knowledge. I flunk so badly for my prelims its definitely going to cost me all the time after today to redeem myself if i want to do well for my A levels. Yes i havent got back my results but i just know i flunked it. Sigh. I pray that God will bless me with the strength and perseverence to last through this 2 months. For Your Glory oh Lord. For Your Glory.

I love You

All of my hope is in You

Jesus Christ take my life

Take all of me

Im worse

2005-09-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

Its funny how we always think we live such tragic lives. We always think we are the only one suffering in this world. That everyone is living perfect lives while you are in a different world, a world where everything doesnt work out the way you want it to be. You have parents that seem to make your life more miserable, friends that have no idea what is the meaning of true friendship, work load and stress that seems unending.

But guess what? You arent alone. But hey i guess you will say well im suffering more than you. Instead of comparing who is living a more miserable life, why dont we come together in celebration that each day is a challenge given by God, and each time the sun sets, we have accomplish the impossible - getting pass the day. If only life was a bed of roses... then it wouldnt be life. For life is meant to be a test. A test to see how deserving we are of eternal life - to enjoy the presence of our heavenly father. A test that we cannot fail.

I will live to love You

I will live to give You praise

I will live a child in awe of You

A good feeling

2005-09-22T21:34:00.000+08:00

To stand in the box office wondering what movie to watch next. That's gotta be one of the best feelings in the world. Well i guess for today, anything but study is.

p.s. dun watch brother grimm. its terrible.

Praise the Lord

2005-09-20T20:06:00.000+08:00

I cant believe it. My prelims are ending! Like finally... it has been one terrible journey. The future look bleak with such grades...

GP: Think i was too bold... should have stuck to something simple..

Biology: The best. Its not reverse transcription, its called reverse prediction. To all out there who is doing biology a levels, if you need help, come to me to ask for my prediction on what is coming out and i guarantee you the opposite will come out. For paper 3, i predicted the essay will be human biology. So i mug human biology the whole sunday, totally tossing my math aside. And guess what, not a single human bio question came out. ZILCH. Not even in the structure.

Math: And bcos of bio, i died for my paper 1 math. It was really weird. Like i totally blank out. Couldnt do any questions lah. Minus like crazy... then i came to a conclusion that i need full marks for paper 2 to get an A which i didnt manage to get since i couldnt do one of the questions.. Hence there goes my usual A.

Chemistry: If it wasnt for my amazing paper 3, i might actually get a high B. But no... i had to screw up my chem so badly that i will be praying for a C or D.

Physics: the ultimate. I duno why everyone tot it was easy. I so got slaughtered by this paper. There like a million stuff i didnt know how to do. The best part: those i know how to do, i got wrong because of careless mistakes. Mega depressing. Confirm plus guarantee fail.

My conclusion: its only prelims. I wont be using it at all and it is of little importance. I will just take this as a lesson and press on towards A levels. Praise the Lord!

By request

2005-09-17T19:55:00.000+08:00

Alright by request from prescilla, i shall list my favourite praise and worship songs. Im not too sure whether they are suitable for yhope praise and worship. Im quite sure qianjin will say cannot here cannot there, but these are just my favourites.

Top 10 List

1) How Great is Our God (Chris Tomling/Passion)
2) Till I See You (United Live)
3) We Fall Down (Passion)
4) God He Reigns/ All I need is You (Hillsong)
5) Majesty (Delirious)
6) Don't Pass Me By (Planetshakers)
7) Better is One Day (Passion)
8) Your Grace is Enough (Chris Tomlin)
9) Blessed be Your Name (Matt Redman)
10) Christ Divine (Reuben Morgan) *Personal Favourite*

Haha sorry im not very into jumpy songs.

First Week

2005-09-17T19:43:00.000+08:00

Mr S.A. Tan : Derrick. You look awfully tired. Not to mention you dont have much time left. Tell you what, why dont you skip your devotions and spend more time studying and resting?

Derrick: Hmmm not a bad idea. Besides im quite sure Jesus will understand my predicament. Alright i have make up meeting sessions with Jesus in future.

Jesus: Are you sure you want to skip the time with me? Have you forgotten who I am? I am your creator and your hope, strength and wisdom in these times.

Derrick: But Jesus im quite sure you wont be able to help me remember all my formulas and definitions and equations.

Mr S.A. Tan: Not to mention what you teach him has little application to his exam papers. Ok i give you credit that the bible may help him with his gp, but Im quite sure it is of no help to his biology, chemistry, physics and maths. Give him a break.

Derrick: Yes... please Jesus... Just during this period of exams...

Jesus: My child. Its up to you. But remember, I am your creator. There is no one greater than me. Who is the wisest of all? Who can create miracles? I will be with you through your times of trials, but if you do take time to spend time with me, i will bless you abundantly beyond your imaginations.

Derrick: Lord, the world may think im silly, but i will have faith. I will stand strong. Lord no matter what, i will listen to your words and follow you. Sorry for doubting your power in my life.

Jesus: My grace is enough. You are forgiven, but work hard and do your best, and I will do the rest.

Mr S.A. Tan: Crap... Mission failed...

This week has been a crazy week for me. I just finished studying my syllabus and went into all my papers without practising much. Therefore i could hardly do any questions. Kinda quite sad. Think im gona flunk all the sections that i did. Anyway one more week which consist of the next 50% for all my papers. Im gona work hard and put all my trust in God to bring me through this paper.

Help me

2005-09-11T00:41:00.000+08:00

*A post that i wrote last week
Today when Jasmine told us to write on the black paper our sins and weaknesses that may lead to us blacksliding, i wrote down what my heart was saying.

Help me Jesus

Help

This was what came to my mind immediately. I have come to realise how sinful i am. No matter how much i repent, i find myself committing the same mistake again. Its as if im not sorry at all for sinning. During sermon, jasmine said we should repent asap. Have you ever reach a stage where you keep commiting the same sin and repenting and this cycle happens again and again and again and again... well i have... it has reach to a point that sometimes i feel that its of little importance to repent since im prob gona sin again.

Jesus pls help me to REALLY repent. To repent wholeheartedly. To decide to follow only you. I can only do this with your help. Help me Jesus. Help.

Panic Meter: 8.0 (San Francisco, CA Quake, 1906)
So there is officially no more time left. My stress level is really high now. Im kinda at the brink of giving up. Its just way too much to study... way too much... I guess it has come to a point where i have to fully trust in the one who rules over everything.

Jesus You are God and You will reign

Gossip King

2005-09-08T01:28:00.000+08:00

I realise a trend in my life. Atomic radius decrease down the period. Crap too much inorganic chem. Anyway the trend is that where ever i go, people seem to term me as the "gossip king". This is so not true. Why do people have this impression of me!!! It is this very reason that no one tells me any gossips fearing that i will spread the gossip to the entire world, resulting in me knowning nothing!!! So how can i be the gossip king?!

All this started since primary school. I remember max chen called me the gossip king, claiming that if a gossip came to me, the whole school will know about it tomorrow. Geezzzz firstly i only know like 1/4 of the level in primary school... and thats the top 1/4 of the level since im always in that band of classes. Secondly, i dun spread news so fast one lor. Need at least 3 days!

Then came to secondary school. HELO!!! I hardly know anything then. Somehow my life in secondary school was so perfect, i didnt care abt anything. I guess then i wasnt even at all interested in who is dating who since i have 99% chance of not knowing that girl anyway. Somehow then everyone still term me gossip king

Then in JC, everyone got the same impression!!! Both the girls and the guys think that im some gossip king and feed on gossips! EXCUSE ME! I so do not. I just happened to observe a lot of scandalous things around the college and i happened to keep them to myself. And its not my fault the girls gossip freely in my presense. However i still hardly know anything since the guys refuse to tell me anything, thinkng that i will prob tell the girls what i hear from them... GEEZ! Am i that bad at keeping a secret?!

Not to mention in church! Ok lah not gossips... but i somehow always am the last person to find out abt news. Like last to know cg date, last to know restructuring, last to know the hottest news. bah im always last until it doesnt matter since im used to it. Dun tell me bcos people think that i am so gossipy and well versed in getting news that they dun need to tell me for me to know it. Ok or izzit that im ignorant...

Oh well prob is bcos im ignorant, prefering my life to be filled with what i like. After all i dun need on gossips. I feed on the joy that i derive for Jesus Christ! That is more than enough for me.

Hopeless

2005-09-07T16:56:00.000+08:00

Its wednesday already.. the mid pt of the holidays. The mid pt of my study time before prelims start. rather depressing. So many things have been happening recently with all the new restructuring and stuff. I just feel like sitting down and watch the world zoom pass me. Just to sit down and not care about anything...

Then suddenly God calls out to me.

"Hey you sluggard! Get up and get going! You got so much work to do. Do not give up for I am with you. I will give you hope and strength and wisdom beyond the comprehension of man."

If you say so, Father... i bet the devil make all the people in hell suffer by forcing them to study...

Hols

2005-09-05T10:23:00.000+08:00

Ok so the hols are here! Whee!!! just means i got less time to prelims.. crappy... again i have reach the state of desperation. the state of hopelessness. whats the pt... it doesnt even count for anything... hai... its just prelims... ARGH!!! IM SO DEAD!!! IM ONE WEEK AWAY FROM DOOM!!! not to mention i havent been able to sleep... my sis say its bcos of stress but then im not stress so she say thats why i cant sleep. she says im stress that im not stress... doink...

Panic Meter: 6.0 (Double Spring Flat, NV quake 1994)

For those of you who follow my song of the week, sorry late this week :P. This week's song of the week is from the new album of youth alive. I really really like what they did to 'All Day'. They fused the song with clocks by coldplay and it was really really impressive. Oh and since its the end/begining of the month, i have decided to post my fav song of last month to those who miss it and that is 'Christ Divine' by Reuben Morgan.

Song of the Week

All Day

Song of the Month

Christ Divine

Teachers' day

2005-09-01T20:58:00.000+08:00

Woohoo success! I managed to turn the tables! From a class that didnt give any teacher anything, i made my whole class sms our teachers together, flooding their phones with at least 20+ messages. Hehehe. At least now they cant call us ingrates and we probably got into the record for the most annoying teachers' day surprise!

What a relief! at least now they will write better testimonials for us!

Lukas

2005-08-28T11:09:00.000+08:00

This week song of the week is from somewhere familiar yet foreign to most of you. A new band has sprouted out of somewhere. This somewhere is United Live! Some members of united live decided to break away to form a band called Lukas. Their music is rather interesting. Lets just say its my type of music - alternative rock. Therefore i termed this genre as alternative rock comtemporary christian music. hehe to listen to more of their songs, you can visit this place to download the demos. In the mean time, i shall give you a preview. My favourite song is this one. Its like jet combine with united live! hehe

Song of the Week

All I Need

Reflection

2005-08-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

Sometimes we should just stop and ponder on this topic we all want to avoid. Think abt this: What will make your relationship with God waver? What will cause you to backslide? Don't think you are invincible. We are very vulnerable to Satan's attack if we do not guard our hearts with the promises of God. Just think about it. Know your weakness. Visualise it. Then visualise a life without Jesus. Then understand how it is not worth it to sacrifice the most important thing for something temporal.

There are just so many reasons to fall away. We always say it will never happen. Think again. This world is filled with possibilities. We never know what will happen tomorrow. We may get into a forbidden relationship, misunderstand the church doctrine, suffer the loss of a loved one that means alot to you, or even choose to follow a close friend/leader who has decided to stray away. There is a saying: will you still remain faithful to God if everyone in the church leaves? Impossible? You never know. Thinking about it makes me fearful... I have come to understand how weak my will is. I can so easily be swayed and forget the person that once sacrificed his life to die on the cross for me. Therefore Jesus i pray that you will continue to be first in my life and keep showing me how real you are. Come into my heart and help me guard it. Help me see the world through your eyes, to understand that your ways are above mine.

All I know

Once again

Proves to fail me

All you are

Once again

Captivates

Christ Divine by Reuben Morgan

burger king senile

2005-08-25T21:42:00.000+08:00

So we had study cg at ps burger king and at 6 the stupid uncle chase us out!!! At first when he approach us first, i said alright but didnt care abt him since the place was relatively empty and we are not affecting their capacity. He came back 10 minutes later THREATENING TO TELL MY SCHOOL!!! can you believe it! Firstly the place wasnt even half filled. I doubt it was even a quarter filled!!! and he had to chase us away saying its some policy. Well mr i was abt to order my dinner but since you chase me out, TOO BAD!!! I wanted so badly to buy a drink from macs and a meal and sit outside BK and eat. Thank God i bought my snack from mos burger!!! PUI!!! I am so not gonna visit that burger king! (Crap thats gonna be hard since bk is my fav fast food...) ARGH!!! Ruined my day...

Anyway i was just thinking... someone once asked me izzit a crush or a like. Is there a difference... is a crush forgetable and erasable... i mean is there really a difference? -just rambling

I hate mindef

2005-08-24T20:17:00.000+08:00

PS:5.0 (equivalent to nagasaki atomic bomb)

This week is also known as mugger week. I have stayed back to study in school until 8pm. The worst part, i havent covered much still... The future looks bleak... 5 days to GP and 19 days to the first official subject paper and im not even half way... but i think God the next 2 weeks are gonna be pretty much holidays.

So today i want to talk abt the thing i hate most. We just dont get along. Its like Hexane with water, they just dun mix. Who am i talking abt? BLOODY MINDEF AND CMPB. Anyway today i tried to call to ask whether its possible to defer/disrupt to study medicine overseas. I said " I will be applying to a university this year and i was wondering if i am taking medicine overseas, is it possible to apply for deferment?" The lady replied with a "What medication are you on?" That gave me a laugh. Anyway after explaining, she told me i have to serve 20 months before applying and im like 20 MONTHS?! LIKE THAT SERVE FINISH BETTER RIGHT! and then i decided to ask abt nus medicine. She replied with a "yes everyone has to serve 20 months before applying for deferment. Even singapore NUS students. For all courses and country." And i said i am pretty sure nus medicine students are given deferment and she said nope there is no such thing. YEAH RIGHT! GO FLY KITE! Whats new... why do i always have to deal with these sort of brainless people... Its like common knowledge NUS Medicine students are disrupted and here she come tell me no such thing. HAI...

At least today i end early(1130!!!) and i had a great lunch so it didnt upset me enough to make this a bad day. Subway and anderson visited us today. It was great. I had a cold cut sandwich flooded with honey mustard(just the best sauce ever created) and 3 wonderful cookies(double chocolate chip, chocolate chip and white choc with macadonian nuts) and a cup of anderson strawberry ice-cream which geri couldnt finish. The ice cream wasnt that fantastic but it was still nice. So i was real real real full. Therefore it didnt surprise me while studying i fell asleep twice for like half an hour each. :D Subway Im lovin it! oh wait wrong slogan. Subway eat fresh! but it was prepacked... not fresh already... :P

Lastly i have decided to start a panic scale which is the thing found on the top right hand corner. After realishing that the average population in RJ is on their 2nd round of revision and that most of my classmates have memorized the kevin cycle already(like the worst thing to memorise on this earth), i have decided to start a panic meter to show how panicky i am right now. It shall follow the richter scale, which i think is from 1-12.

Meteor Garden

2005-08-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

Oh my... i havent post for a week... and its not because my blog is dying... The reason is pretty simple. You see i have been mugging(quite ineffectively) every day after school. On tuesday, i happen to decide to eat dinner and watch tv. Unfortunately for me, there wasnt any nice show on and i refused to watch the new chinese show with christopher lee inside. It was then i spotted a box of vcds beside the vcd player. Its none other than Meteor Garden Season1. Well i havent watched it before and i actually watched half of the second season which was terrible... So anyway i decided to give it a shot and oh my... the first episode was so funny and interesting that i had to watch the next one.

well and those who know me, im a tv king. I cant wait for episodes. Thats why i download by seasons(CSI Charmed OneTreeHill Lost and the list goes on...) So... once i reach home, i go on a meteor garden spree. And today, in fact i just finished the last episode!!! YAY! Can go back to study! But guess what i actually have a craving to watch season 2 though i know how crappy it is! Haha! So anyway its a pretty sweet show. Kinda bad for us though :P. Its one of those shows that make you think how nice would it be to have a girlfriend or vice versa. Now i understand why girls fall for that daomingshi. Wouldnt it be nice to have someone who love you that much? Yeah i know... i keep thinking how nice it would be if i could be with the person i like... but then reality hits me again. I admit throughout the entire show, i did feel jealous and stuff but after the whole thing, i realise i already got what i want. No one loves me more than Jesus. I must remember no one can ever take the place of Jesus. He will never leave me and act as if he doesnt like me like that stupid girl shancai(weed). :D well at least i learn some dating tips from this show :P

To get your girl, this is the 7 things you need
1) Have Long hair that doesnt look like pineapple preferably :P
2) Have Loads of money (for those superficial ones)
3) Either be really rude(like daomingshi) or be real quiet and act cool(like lei)
4) Form a group of 4 in school and start giving out red slips
5) Act real fierce when you see the girl with another guy and try to pick a fight
6) Always tell her that you will protect her (Preferably get bashed up in front of her)
7) The ultimate: Give her a red slip, get the whole school to bash her up and rescue her when she cannot take it anymore

How you know she is lying abt not liking you
1) Keep changing topic when you ask her whether she likes you
2) She stops in the rain to think after breaking up with you
3) She suddenly talks real fast and happily when she sees you with another girl
4) when you break up and patch up and break up and patch up....

Oh well at least i learn something from this show. Like tips on dating. This is what i shall do in the future
1) Get stuck somewhere(like locked up) and fall/act sick
2) On a double date, act real pissed with the other guy so you can have a private date again
3) Choose a rainy day for the first date and sit in the rain to wait and pray that there is a jam that will cause her to be late
4) In case of break up, never do it while standing in the rain
5) To make her put in effort, put a time limit to your 'dating period'
Haha the list goes on of cos but i shall not add more incase later people say i some evil guy. :D

Conclusion: I shall try to act as cool as lei. Its just not me to be like daomingshi... rather be like lei who doesnt care abt anything, just have a constant face and talk with heckcare tone. haha but thats for the future that is.

This week song of the week... well i havent really been listing to music and stuff. I still think Christ Divine is on the top of my chart. Ok sorry to disappoint you but i really love the album and this is like my next favourite song. This is because i have been listenin to reuben the entire week while studying :P.

Song of the Week

Keep Me

Hope Hongkong visits!

2005-08-13T20:53:00.000+08:00

Today we had some Hope Hong Kong people following us around. It was so terrible bcos I DUN SPEAK CANTO AND I DUN UNDERSTAND ANY!!! Daniel kept making us talk to them when there is like little communication... terrible... but they are pretty cool people. Especially philip. The one with the BRIGHT PINK shirt. They are real nice people which is quite obvious from just observing their funny performance during service. This is daniel with the 2 cool guys.

Then there were the other 2. Philip and this real interesting girl. Unfortunately i cant remember her name. Whats new... with my amazing memory... Im already quite fascinated that i remembered philip's name. Or at least i think its philip... Anyway the girls were quite excited when taking this photo so can hardly see anything.
We also had a mega birthday crash. Like suddenly celebrate all the jc people birthday. Anyway it was matthew, ruisi, ziwei, zikang and that hongkong girl. or should i say "hiong kong" :P These are the birthday people.

So we did the usual birthday cake and singing blah blah blah. hehe but this time we had hot drumlets from pizzahut! The mango cake was pretty good as well. Anyway it was a great party as usual.

Then of cos after that, as jc students, we jumped back into reality where there is no such thing as partying. Another words... back to mugging...

Alrightie! Time for Song of da Week! Ok this week's song is taken from reuben morgon solo album "World Through Your Eyes". I am so in love with this album and bcos i cant make up which song is nicer than the other, I have decided to post 2 songs. The first one is none other than the song "World Through Your Eyes". It isnt that nice when you first hear it but it becomes real catchy and you cant get enuff of it later on. The second one is "Christ Divine". Its a real slow worship song but its a really beautiful... The rest of the album is amazing. One of the best worship albums i have heard all year. I strongly encourage you guz to get it. :)

Song of the Week

World Through Your Eyes

Christ Divine

End of the Week!

2005-08-12T22:28:00.000+08:00

I wish every week of school is like this... A 2 DAY WEEK! I am like so happy... this is like the best week ever. Go school for like 2 days and celebrate the weekend!!! Woohooo! Looking back at my 5 day holiday(i pon national day celebrations) it was quite fruitless in terms of studying... studied so little... hai... at least go school got more motivation to study in the library... anyway this entry is for those who wanna download the pictures we took at FOP. Sorry i forgot all about it. We sure had some fun time at FOP. Sorry i didnt go newton with you guys so no photo there. but we got this group photo which is real nice.

So those of you who want the entire album of pictures, click here to get it!

Btw the song of the week is gona end soon. There will be a new song of the week tmr and its gona be real good! Come back to get it! :P

ECP!

2005-08-09T15:28:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was sure a fun day. We had a Central JC gathering which was fun as i got to know new people like ziwei and aaron and many more. Everything was fun EXCEPT
1) Matt made us walk from macdonalds to pit 60 which is after bedok jetty. That is a 1 hour walk.
2) Matt and Kemmy forgot to bring most of the food..
3) My speakers couldnt seem to work so no music.
4) Started late so we couldnt play the games as planned

OH WELL. but everything went well. Matt bought us mini corneto to plead for forgiveness. Kemmy and Matt rushed home to get the food. The music didnt seem important as everyone was engrossed in conversation. The games went well and we even started our own games etc.

Our dear youth pastor also showed up! Shirley joined us for the bbq and cooked for us the food with her tender loving care so of cos the food tasted so much better :P! I guess overall it was a successful event. The goal was to join the jc group together and i think many of us made an effort to go out of our comfort zone and make new friends. I even played a few games of intense bridge, which is really rare since most people dun think during that game which requires lotsa thinking and manipulation. SO the food was good, the company was great, the location was terrible but the weather was amazing, i guess we have lots to thank God for.

For me i just want to thank God for giving me this wonderful family. I think abt myself and the fun i have with this family, and i wish others too will get to experience my joy. Many out there have not got to know Jesus and have no idea how life with Jesus is like. I so wish they will come to have a life like mine, full of fulfillment and joy. Thank You Jesus...

FOP Friday

2005-08-06T00:34:00.000+08:00

Just got back from FOP and im so mega high!!! What a great time of worship... I never knew delirious could perform live so much better than their albums. I really enjoyed it ALOT! Especially with Darlene and her team doing such a great job and delirious lead martin singing so well... i feel like going again tmr...

So highlight performance! I realise we should sing more Chris Tomlin songs... he is a real good song writer... Anyway darlene did the chorus from his song "How great is our God"(can be found in both arriving and passion album) It was a really ministering song... what else... i realise hillsong is really good at leading a congregation into singing a single line song again and again and again til we never want to stop. It was quite sad they didnt sing any new songs from the "God He Reign" album and my favourite songs from "Look to You"

Yes delirious? lead kinda repeated the same words during his worship. It was like listenin to Hillsong delirious united album. Delirious is really well known for his free worship, as most of you witness and here in his first song presentation of "light of the world" (the one with the candle) Anyway for those of you interested, delirious? will be releasing a new album soon which i cant wait to get my hands on!

Alright inspired by shirley's blog and priscilla's comment, i have decided to start a song of the week section. Every week i will post a my favourite song of the week to let you guz download it and have a chance to listen to it as well. Alright? So to start the ball rolling, this week's single of the week is none other than "How Great is Our God" taken from Passion's "How Great is Our God". Passion is kinda like a group of worship leaders from America who come together for this mega conference and to record an album. This album is pretty nice. (The link is below in case some blind bats like daniel aka frankenstein cant see it...)

Song of the Week

How Great is our God

Opps not dead yet

2005-08-04T23:50:00.000+08:00

Opps very long never blog already. Well let me think... what were the highlights... Well i went to sonicfest. So i missed the planetshakers and sonicflood combo day but i still managed to catch sonicflood and the singapore copycat sonicedge. And after watching these both bands, i realise my church,hope, is rather conservative... i mean the musicians were like green day type... they way they dance and play their instruments... rather scary... looked possessed. But hey they are great at creating an atmosphere and stuff. But seriously.. a wild singapore band... never dream to see this day... ok enuff of that... it wasnt that fantastic and stuff bcos we didnt know the lyrics and the music was too loud. But oh well FOP IS HERE!!!

I cant wait for fop... every year i attend fop and every year i leave feeling like i had a real encounter with Jesus... It is just so great... especially with delirious? this year, its gonna be the best FOP ever!

Oh and this past week has been like university and future thinking week. I guess i have pretty much made up my mind. I dunno why but i seem to keep falling back to medicine... I mean besides that the only thing i might want to do is math but seriously where can math bring a person? I dun think i want to be a math teacher... so anyway medicine in imperial college looks real attractive... I mean yes its expensive... but the experience i will get is priceless. Not to mention i will get to make new international friends and form close bonds with our brothers and sisters from hope london. Thinking abt it makes me so excited! Studying in the city of london... oh man!!! I sure do hope imperial college will accept me! Hmm and maybe i will try out as a vet too but my sis is quite against it and have been telling me its a bad choice since i have to deal with creepy reptiles... which im seriously fine with actually :P just treating them sounds a bit weird...

Censored

2005-07-25T19:07:00.000+08:00

Due to the sensitive nature of the topic, i have decided to take away my comments. Just in case i get bashed up in school. Anyway I GOT SONICFEST TICKET!!! WOOHOO! Im so happy! Like totally crazy! Party the whole saturday away! Woohoo! Got a ticket from my tutor! hehe

Ok this time, bcos puay wants to rant i shall rant with her. Here are some funny stuff i heard:

Harry will turn evil and force Ron to kill him. (given by lela)

Dumbledore didnt really die. It was just an act.

Harry's scar is a horocrux. (Chloe) and i loved this point! it will so turn the story around. I further elaborated abt how the story will go. Like he will go searching for the last one and cant find it, only to find out its him and that if he wanted to destroy voldement, he had to sacrifice himself.

Snape will play a major role in the next book. Probably like be the one who kills voldemont. Kinda like Darth Vader in the story of Starwars.

Hai looks like my ultimate battle will probably not come to vision. I always thought the last battle would be fought by harry and malfoy against voldemont. Like the kids against voldemont :P.

Pls tag your views!

SCANDAL!

2005-07-24T11:12:00.000+08:00

yup havent blogged for a week. Thats bcos i had such a boring week. Nothing funny to write. No interesting sight. Quite sad. BUT YESTERDAY i saw something that is finally worth blogging. But before that let me tell you abt my trip to the NEWater plant.

We had a class excursion there. Yah thats abt it. The tour was neither boring nor interesting. We just found out what they are dumping into our reservoir and what water we are drinking in those newater bottles. ok full stop.

Alrightie now for what i saw yesterday. Well i went shopping with qianjin after service yesterday as he wanted to get this nike shirt. As we were walking around takashimaya, I spotted a couple! I spotted a student with a teacher!!! ARGH!!! Its this rather pretty girl from my school and this really average looking teacher! HOW GROSS!

I mean if the teacher is tall, dark, handsome, and has a good figure, hey dear great choice. BUT this teacher is none of that! He is rather short, very fair, scrawny figure and has this weird accent(another words cant talk properly). The sad part, the girl is counted as one of the big catch in school. Hai... Dun understand this girl... This will so ruin her reputation... Anyway im real disgusted. And i tot this only happens in the movies. Eick.

Another week

2005-07-18T17:39:00.000+08:00

Ok izzit me or time is passing way too fast... hmm so what did i do this weekend besides attending the crave service... well i read harry potter and the half blood prince. I finished it around 5 on sunday.

My review? Well its better than the last book(order of the pheonix). As compared to the others... well it serves more like a transition book to the last battle. It didnt have much of a plot. It however contribute much to the overall plot. Thru this book, voldemont history is revealed. Yes a major character died... I actually teared but bcos the book description is so lousy, it dried up almost instantly. Thats the thing abt JK Rowling. She is unable to bring emotion into her work. You dun really feel it... But hey the story is great. I like magic so yah :P.

Well really looking forward to the next and last installment of the harry potter series. Its definitely going to be an adventure. ANOTHER 2 YEARS!!! I hate that woman... now must wait again...

Oh and my revision... terrible.. i cant get myself to start... this is terrible... im so gonna die...

TGIF

2005-07-15T18:28:00.000+08:00

Umm wow that was fast.. one week pass already... bleh that just means less time to study for prelims.. crappy. Anyway i think i had a great week. Though i didnt go out or anything, i had dinner at this vegetarian indian restaurant outside my house and its ummm unique... hehe interesting lah. but too much oil.

What else.. i went out with inez adeline iris and tohqi for lunch today. Quite fun. Just eating at pizza hut and joining the sisterhood conversation. Talk abt alot of stuff... Anyway the food wasnt that great accordin to the others but luckily i chose the safe dishes. hehe

Tmr ESS! woohoo! should be quite high atmosphere! hope it will be fun! OH BTW WATCH OUT FOR ME NEXT WEEK ON THE SCREENS OF NEXUS! hehe its gona be a surprise!

Lost!

2005-07-11T20:33:00.000+08:00

Haha check it out. Central F Lost!

Days in the Kingdom of God

2005-07-10T20:47:00.000+08:00

Nothing beats spending time with family, whether it is blood or spiritual. :-) This weekend has been a really great one. Kinda like my last weekend of fun... Saturday service. Was really great. Just hanging out with raphael and hanyang before service. Then after service and seed, a few of us from central F went to mark and spencer to talk. Kinda like those im gona have at UK if i do go there to study. We had cookies and a pot of earl grey tea. We just sat down and eat, drink and talk. Really had lotsa fun. Talk abt many stuff, from cultures of districts to evangelism, from schools to university application. Hehe good place to hang out. Force us to leave by 930 since it closes at 930 hehe.

Today was even better bcos we had our central F outing! The day didnt start so good bcos my parents stole half my tray of brownies which was meant for our picnic, thinking i baked them for their golf friends... like excuse me... i am nice but not that nice until bake stuff for strangers... so oh well we had to make do with what we have... i think it was the best batch of brownie i have ever made! I really enjoyed it. and besides playing spastic games like whacko and panic, we also played captain's ball where ALOT of people cheated... All cheater bugs... anyway it was real fun. After that we decided to go kayaking but the weather disagree with us. So we decided to just hang around which turned out to be a good thing bcos it gave me a chance to go roller blading!

Hmm the last time i bladed was like 8 years ago. And i so lost it. I couldnt keep my balance and stuff. I couldnt accelerate but it was so adrenaline rushing! I thoroughly enjoyed it. Oh man i wish i had a pair of blades now. Oh and nicholas dislocated his shoulder in front of me bcos he tried to look back at me... and then i had to fall down to brake bcos i had problems braking hehe.. so anyway we got him an ambulance and everything worked out well bcos now he has 2 weeks of mc which is seriously a blessing since he is in ns. hehe. Think i should start picking up blading. help me lose weight hehe.

Then it started to pour. So we evacuated. Those on foot made it in time but the rest of us who had to return our equipment got caught in the rain. I had an umbrella hehe thanks to jiehui so it wasnt so bad for me. Plus it was such an ugly umbrella so i gave it to this lady with her daughter who were waiting for the rain to stop to get home. Then after that we headed to my place for a shower, some pizza and pasta and also just a time of talking before evacuating to return to our respective houses. I really thank God for this family. Hehe this is like a taste of how days in heaven will be like... oh man... cant wait! hehe... macham asking for death like that :P

Results!

2005-07-08T23:58:00.000+08:00

Hey Hey! Announcement! My grades are out! ABBB! An improvement from last CT and i think im really blessed! A for math and B for my 3 sciences. Not to mention i didnt fail my GP bcos apparently no one in class fail GP so THANK YOU LORD! I think God has really been with me through out this exams. I do admit that i feel a sense of hopelessness before the paper, especially for the last chem paper. But He was faithful. He helped me finish my paper in time, giving me enough time and brain mental boost to finish my chem mcq in 5 minutes, helping me get 8/10, which helped alot in getting my B.

I just pray my grades will continue to get better as i continue to work harder. From a OOOE(ATROCIOUS!) to a ABDO(okok i guess) to a ABBO(still got one fail...) to a ABBB(SO BLESSED!) Hehe maybe i will get like AABB for prelims and AAAA for A levels! woohoo! hehe anyway as i rejoice in the Lord, i do believe there are many out there who are discouraged by their grades. I guess all i have to say to you guz is have more faith in the Lord. Do not be discouraged by these grades that count nothing to the finals. Just continue to work hard. If you know you didnt work hard, then you should know what to do. But if you believe that you have worked hard but still didnt score, i guess you will have to evaluate your study style. Study hard for the prelims. Do not give up. Stay focus. Pray hard. Surely God will bless his children!

PW outing

2005-07-07T21:01:00.000+08:00

Got back physics yesterday. Managed to get a B! Thank the Lord! Real lucky...

Yeah 3 Bs for my 3 sciences... but they are all low Bs, which means i got ALOT of R O O M for improvement. yup yup. getting back math tmr.

Anyway what i wanna talk abt today... We had a pw outing. Yup my pw group is still strongly bonded together. I think i was really blessed to be placed in that group. Hehe i know many people dun like their group but the 5 of us just love each other's company, so much that we still meet up after pw ended. Im quite sure the other groups dun even hang out. In fact i think some were quite happy to get rid of their group mates. :P Anyway we ate at pasta mania and had a earthquake at swensens. The icecream was a treat from clarence so THANK YOU CLARENCE! I ate alot... so much for my diet plan... so we talked abt our future plans. About what we wanna study, what university we wanna go to etc. In fact i have been talking to people abt this topic for the past 2 days.

Conclusion: With the olympics gona be at london in the year 2012, i am so going london to study. hehe actually i was planning to apply to uk universities. The olympics further supported my decision. Im aiming for the city universities in london, primarily Imperial College. Think it should be fun taking medicine there. Heard lotsa singaporeans go there so wont be all alone. At least i can run away from RJC.. dun have to go to nus medicine(if i can get in) and enter a mini RJ (EEWWWWW!) So yup thats my goal! And my prelims are 2 months away. Depressing... cant believe have to start studying liao...

Back to School

2005-07-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

So i dragged myself out of bed, due to the amazingly loud 'forever' being played by my ipod alarm. So depressing... back to school. Best part is second period CHEM PAPER! Like didnt expect it at all... no mental preparation... but thank God i got a borderline B again. Not to mention i got the sheep breathing question correct! HAHAHA clarence got it wrong btw! hahaha.

Hmm what else.. I nearly got killed at PE by this big guy. Throw the ball so hard i flew pass by head. Next time he play i dun want to be goalkeeper already... And after that was bio paper which i was quite prepared to receive the bad news. Again another blessing, on the dot B. Phew.

Yup today is a boring and sad day. Bcos its the first day of school. I was just thinking. Our prelims are like 2 months away. And if we took like 1 month to study those few topics during common test... wont we need alot of time to study the entire syllabus... hai.. i think i better start preparing. Read more GP stuff and start revising J1 topics. Yes im being kiasu. Yes im being muggerish... But reality has hit me. If i dun get 4As in RJ, i will be like the minority since more than 50% gets 4 As... Hai.. JC life is sad.. just sad..

4.11 gathering

2005-07-04T01:30:00.000+08:00

So today i actually went out with my sec 4 class for a gathering. MAN IT WAS SO FUN. The response was pretty good. We had 10 at bowling and 11 at dinner and 10 at dota. Think we all had a great time talking, playing around, making alot of noise etc. Especially with brandon and weiwen around. Seriously life is never boring with them around. I really miss them so much.

Whats the difference between rj outings and ac outings? Firstly although we all have our preference to who we want to talk to, we still make an effort to gel together and talk to each other. I can safely say we function as one whole class and not in cliques like how i have it in my class is rjc. Its pretty sad seriously. In rj, we first had to like convince everyone to spend a lil more than usual to go marche. Then we had to try to get the class to sit on a big table which failed. So we ended up sitting in cliques and gender. I had to move around tables just to chat with everyone. Its like whats the point of a class outing then...

Sometimes i wonder whether is it my responsibility to bring the class together. I mean its not like i dun try... but the response is terrible... its like they dun even want to be part of the class. Maybe its just me and my ac spirit of unity. But oh well. Thats why i love my ac friends so much. We never have to convince people to eat somewhere abit ex bcos we know those places are great for chatting and the food is great. We always sit together on a big table. And everyone is involved in the conversation. Thats the great thing abt ac gatherings. We always have fun together and everyone is willing to participate. We dun have to force anyone to go.

Well will be seeing you guz again this teachers' day. Cant wait!

Over!

2005-07-03T11:28:00.000+08:00

Woohoo exams over! Im still partying so this blog entry will be short. Chem paper was terrible but oh well ITS OVER! Ok going out now byez!

One more to go

2005-06-30T18:36:00.000+08:00

Walked out of physics paper on wed feeling stupid because apparently everyone thought it was easy... i was like struggling... oh well... nothing unusual about that since im one of the stupider ones.

Today's paper was rather ok, but it was tedious. I didnt know how to do a few questions but most of them are probability and is not that i dunno, just ensure whether my answer is correct since i always double count stuff. But i think i bagged this one. The paper was so long... 3 hours... i was so mega drained when i got out. As i write this, my eyes are closing... even after drinking a can of red bull... hai so tired... cant wait for the end... then can finally catch up on some sleep.

Oh and one more. My brother-in-law's father just passed away yesterday so i will be attending the wake soon. Hai one year ago around this time i also attended a wake... i see a trend... hope next year nothing like this will happen... ok signing off. gona take a power nap!

Sick..

2005-06-28T12:05:00.000+08:00

Ok im getting sicker... nose leaking... sneeze every half an hour... the cold bug is here... Pls pray for me... I got much to cover today... thanks...

First CT paper

2005-06-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

So i had about 4 hours of sleep. Obviously not enough. Which is why i woke up sniffing and am still sniffing now. Its like sick but not sick.. bah... Anyway back to the paper. So today is bio. Can be refered to as my most hated subject due to the immense amount of memory work. And unfortunately, my memory aint like raphael's. I got like the shortest memory in the world. Which is why i can never remember people's name while they can remember mine. A bit embarrassing but oh well...
Anyway the paper started with section B first which stunned me bcos i thought i didnt get the mcq paper. There was only 2 structured question and 1 essay. Unfortunately for me, 1 of the structured question was on RNA which i was totally clueless about. Its not suppose to be included BUT apparently there is like a short paragraph on it in the notes... how spastic...
The MCQ was the killer. Felt like i was back in my higher chinese paper days. Felt like the cloze passage where all 4 answers look similar. I think from now on, must bring dice into bio paper liao. 3 more to go! Jia You everyone!
Btw i got no paper tmr! yay! can sleep! Ok back to stoning in front of my physics notes.

Studying at S11

2005-06-26T12:47:00.000+08:00

Im so amazed with myself. I actually woke up at early to reach cafe cartel to have breakfast with rap qj and hanyang at 930. We studied til prayer meet started. Then after service when clm started, me xiangyu and eugene studied til 9pm under the lousy supervision of joanna.

The amazing thing is that after they left, i went over to s11 as starhub was closing. I studied all the way til 1045pm, then i left for home, planning to sleep...
but... the comp got in the way. Did some stuff. Downloaded some stuff. Talk to some people. Ended up sleeping at 2am. Oh no... no more time left... and im not done with bio...
Time to CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG HWA CHONG! :P

Kelly

2005-06-24T19:54:00.000+08:00

Today is the day after Kelly's death anniversary.
Time has really flew... Still can remember that day when i received the news...
A reminder to all. Lets work real hard to bring the people around us to Christ. If it wasnt for raphael bold move, Kelly would not have the chance to accept Christ and celebrate heaven. Raphael i thank you. To the rest of you all, it is never too early... we never know what will happen tomorrow.

mugging in school

2005-06-24T15:52:00.000+08:00

So im in school now... mugging... how happening... so many people here mugging... all so hardworking... So since i cant seem to read my bio notes at home, i decided to bring them to school hoping to use the raffles aura to aid me in studying bio. So far it has been... ok lah though i lost 15 minutes to sleeping without realising... Stupid biotech.. so boring... i wonder how shuyi can take it since she is planing to study biotech... So much to cover so little time... yet i feel a sense of peace. I think this time i can really feel Jesus' presense whenever i study. Or maybe thats bcos im constantly listening to united live or delirious while studying... hehe. I realised i dun really fear this coming common test. But its still friday. Wait til sunday. Maybe then i will be suffering panic attacks.

Man this week pass too fast... a moment ago i was in starthub seed meeting rushing the meeting, then i was at wfl learning abt end times, then i had a study group session and POOF its friday... If only i had a time device... God pls stop time..

Study!

2005-06-23T22:10:00.000+08:00

Thank God for friends like raphael,qianjin and matthew to study with me. At least it is less dull... HOWEVER they are a bunch of impatient people who refuse to wait for channel 5 to show Lost and go watch like alot of episodes on my comp when they are suppose to be studying or sleeping. Poof waste so much time.. anyway at least we did lotsa maths. Managed to cover all my topics except one. Time seems to be ticking real fast...

2nd paragraph. Demanded by puaylin. Anyway i think we had a great talk together. We were discussing what we wanna do when we leave college and stuff.
Raphael: Study in LSE. Become a mega rich businessman.
Qianjin: Study phychology(due to too much physics, psychology has a new spelling). Become rich and look into the minds of the powerful. Become a worship leader in church who can read people's mind... scary..
Me: Study medicine in UK. Doctor in a hospital. Partner with classmate to start a small business.

As you can see we got high hopes and dreams. After deciding our goals, we shall listen to shirley. WE SHALL STUDY LIKE CRAZY!!! Shirley we wont let you down! At least we will not let ourselves down. Ok back to my chem tutorial. :P

Sleep Spell

2005-06-21T17:13:00.000+08:00

Ok its official... Someone casted a sleep spell on me... I woke up at 12 even though i slept relatively early which is 1 plus. I havent been able to study properly bcos i keep wanting to sleep. As i type now, im falling asleep... what is happening... Whoever put this curse on me, pls lift it... i need to study... Stupid sleep demon...

Doctrine of last days

2005-06-20T22:22:00.000+08:00

Word for Life today was power beyond power. Never did i know the end times was so interesting. Its really amazing how God has planned the Great Tribulation, The 2nd coming, the millenium, judgement day and everything. WOW!!! Hehe after the lesson, i feel very compelled to do a bible study on the book of Revelations to learn more. Then what puay lin said struck me. It is no point knowing too much, but its good to know a little. This is so true... So many people dedicate their lives to studying the end times and waiting for it... Whats the point! People! There is no way we can predict Jesus' 2nd coming. But there is one way we can make it sooner. SPREAD THE GOSPEL PEOPLE! Comon lets go all out and try to bring the gospel to those around us. Want to be part of the generation that witness the 2nd coming? Then ya better start working. As much as the Great tribulation sounds scary, but i actually dun mind being part of it. Yes i think my faith might waver for a while due to the mass chaos, but i believe if i stay with the church, not only will i grow stronger in faith, but i will fully understand what living for God means. And that is a lesson i will need if i am to enter eternity with Jesus.

Could I ever

2005-06-19T23:37:00.000+08:00

Could I ever thank you for what you did at calvary, when you bled and died for me?
Could I ever turn away knowing that you've paid the price, that i can never pay?

These lyrics never fail to remind me how faithful our God is. You see the last few days, i have been thinking abt those who were once walking with God and were close friends to me, and then they decided to follow the world and leave the path of righteousness. My heart really ache for them... How i wish they understood... I pray that they will one day return to Jesus and say this to themselves " Could I ever".

Ban Jia!

2005-06-19T23:09:00.000+08:00

Ban Jia! So this is gonna be my new blog. I hope i will remember to post... :P